Every Second Counts

The past few days, I was feeing quite down. Bes forgot her cellphone at home... and my next resort was to talk to someone who doesn't know me... someone who would be my friend...

Someone like I***.

And this is what he has to say:

"I'll tell you another secret. Everytime I'm down, I just look at my
watch. Then I'll realize that everything will come to pass. That
every second counts. That time should [be] spent with the happy
moments..." (08.29.2007)

Since that day, I look forward to spend my time looking for my happy moment... or better yet, MAKING my happy moment!

HAPPY MOMENT (HM) #1: After a very long afternoon spent with my Mom not talking to me (I revealed something that I did that she clearly did not approve on), we cooked dinner together. Spending time in the kitchen with Mama did a lot of wonders. Ü

HM #2: The Nose sent an SMS early in the morning, telling me why he wasn't able to text back the night before. He learns fast! Ü And seeing this message upon waking up made me smile. Ü

HM #3: I was doing my I.V. Therapy Training completion; My friend and I were going in and out of the hospital wards to look for patients to do our procedures on ( I.V. insertion, IVTT meds administration and bloot transfusions). We were exhausted as we ate lunch. Happy Moment #3 happened when The Nose sent an SMS asking me how my first day of work was! (How sweet! Ü)

HM #4: In the afternoon, when my adrenalin and endorphin levels were low, Bes sent me a PM through YM, telling me how she misses me. (We share the same sentiments! Ü)

HM #5: I had my first I.V. insertion!!! And although it wasn't as good as I expected it to be, I had a clear line going. And the patient didn't complain! (How could she? She was on ETT! Ü)

HM #6: Mom and I went to SM Davao. I accompanied her as she collected payments for her customers accounts. We bought stuff for Papa, Lola, Mama and myself. I'm happy that Mama's happy. Ü

HM #7: Mom and I ate waffles on our way home. (Simple yet memorable! Ü) We were laughing about the fact that the waffle store didn't have any change for our money, and we had to rummage our wallets, purses, bags and pockets for coins... just to buy 2 waffles (one waffle for each of us). What a sight! Ü

HM #8: My BSN friends and I went out... had dinner and some few drinks. I realized how much I missed Anna, Janjan, Jhing and Kuya Velly. Getting together with them felt "homey". Ü

And the list can go on...

I felt so down that I forgot to remember that there could be numerous Happy Moments a person can accumulate in a span of 24 hours! (And the ones listed here are he most significant HAPPY MOMENTS that I could think of.

Each of us really has the capacity to find happiness in every big and small thing that we do. We just need to open our eyes and be aware that these happy moments are embedded in our daily lives.

Stay happy!!! Ü


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Let the Nose Know Ü

I have this ache in my heart right now...

And I don't know where it is coming from...

I just know that it is quite unusual for me to feel this way. Maybe because you started saying some things that made the non-sensical messages that we exchange into something more...
... confusing.

Maybe I am denying the fact that there could be something going on in this situation because both of us seem to be mending something that has been broken. And a lot of the people around us, whom we love and who loves us, keep on encouraging us to take things slow.

Go slow...
... and get to know each other...
... better.

Kudos to what you have been doing, though. You gave me another reason to smile. Even those simplest things that might have gone unnoticed.


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D. K. I.

Bakit ang dali sabihin ng "I LOVE YOU" sa isang kaibigan?

Paano if you often tell your friends those words... and then suddenly hindi mo na masabi sa isang particular friend... kasi, yung "I LOVE YOU" na sasabihin mo has a whole new meaning to it.

Hay.

Naku naman kasi...

D.K.I.

Because words evade me now...

Tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib

Di ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
Paikot-ikot lang, nalilito, oh ba’t ganito
Paggising sa umaga, ikaw ang nasa isip
Tulog sa gabi, laman ng panaginip
Mahal ba kita, o ano, ewan ko

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
Simula nang makilala di maipinta ngiti sa mata
Magdamag ang kwentuhan, kulitan, tawanan
Di ko maintindihan, bakit ngayon lang
Kung kelan ang puso ko ay maselan

Hindi mo lang alam
Takot lang akong masaktan
Iniingatan lang aking puso
Kung maiibibigay ko lang ang sinasabi mo
Di na sana tayo nagkakaganito
Pasensya ka na kung hanggang dito muna tayo

Di ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
Paikot-ikot lang, nalilito, oh ba’t ganito
Urong-sulong yan ang paborito
Lilitaw, lulubog, ‘tanong mo kahit sino
Pakisabi na lang
Ano ba talaga’ng gusto mong gawin ko

Pakiusap lang
Wag mo na akong tignan nang ganyan
Nakakatunaw ang iyong tingin
Hinay-hinay ka lang, mahina ang kalaban
Baka di na maiwasang mahulog nang tuluyan

Hindi mo lang alam
Takot lang akong masaktan
Iniingatan lang aking puso
Kung maiibibigay ko lang ang sinasabi mo
Di na sana tayo nagkakagulo-gulo
Pasensya ka na kung hanggang dito muna tayo
Hanggang dito na lang, hanggang dito na lang

Tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib

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Tulak ng Bibig by Julianne

Anima Christi (Soul of Christ)

Anima Christi, sanctifica me.
Corpus Christi, salve me.
Sanguis Christi, inebria me.
Aqua lateris Christi, lava me.
Passio Christi, conforta me.
O bone Iesu, exaudi me.
Intra tua vulnera absconde me.
Ne permittas me separari a te.
Ab hoste maligno defende me.
In hora mortis meae voca me.
Et iube me venire ad te,
ut cum Sanctis tuis laudem te
in saecula saeculorum. Amen.

I'm ready...

Before the end of July, I was very apprehensive for August to come.

One of the countless reasons is the fact that August is the month that we used to celebrate our Anniversary. It would've been our 10th.

*Sigh*

It's a good thing that I have a very good friend who helped me through it.

I told him that I'm really over.

He insists that I'm half-baked, since this event is one of the things that may bring back memories.

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It didn't bring back either good or bad memories. I'm even surprised why I don't remember those memories (knowing that I am the type of person who is sappy and cheesy and romantic and all).

I was wondering if I have selective amnesia.

Well, I don't.

I'm just apprehensive for the approaching date.

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It's like

a deadline,

an exam that you haven't studied on,

an impromptu interview...
but you have that foresight that it is coming, yet you are unprepared for it.

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And the 1st of August came... I made it... And it made me laugh, looking back on how apprehensive I was for August to come.

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Tonight, I told my friend that if love comes (he calls it "destiny")... it's not something to rush for...

I think it should be like gourmet food. Since it is served in small portions, it must be savoured slowly.

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I can now safely and happily say,

"I am ready."